Post-scriptum

Some of my friends asked me: "why did you wrote that ?", "what do you meant with that?"
It's queer... I wrote an "anger-map", my map... My behavior, my "acting-style". Imagine from The Beatles, was my first step. Those moments when I realise that I'm in a deeeep shit, when I decide to change myself and to be a good guy...Not me! After that came some phrases. The second step was Asylum by Disturbed, a more intensive anger. Those words came from my silly mind in that order and i wrote them. The words with big letters were those feelings which were stronger. You know that song...Freak on a leash from Korn...it has that part where Jonathan Davis is rappering or something like that, those meanless words... This part was something like that. With words...with meaning, but not in phrases. This 3rd step was the "highest anger-level" what I felt in the last months. It was like someone was screaming in my brain... was awful.
In the end I had that take it easy feeling....relax buddy, it's OK...it happens. The last is from Saint Anger - Metallica.
It was a weird moment when I wrote it and I wanted to delete it...but I'm happy for letting that post in his place, because it is interesting for me, it's like a "time-mirror" I can see myself in those words...